Affairs of the heart – Chapter 24

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Chapter 24
 

He looked at her car till it disappeared. Meeting her again had shook him to the core. He knew he had hurt her deeply and it was time to rectify those mistakes. Destiny had given him a second chance and he was not going to let it go this time. He had pined for her each and every day in last four years. He would win her back n never let her go again.

Next few days Anandi was busy. She had some important releases coming up. Shiv knew about it and decided not to disturb her during this crucial time. He knew she was still nursing those wounds and he needed to give her time.

On the last day of the release Anandi worked till late. Two of her developers were ill hence work was hectic.

It was 1:30 by the time she wrapped up her work. Her car had been given for servicing hence she had to take company cab. She rushed into the lift and was startled to see Shiv already present in it.

He raised an eyebrow  “You are still in office ?”

Anandi hesitated a little. She didn’t expect to encounter Shiv in the lift he should have left for home long back.

“I had some important releases so”

“Is this a normal practice here’staying late?”

“No Zigma is very employee friendly and they provide good work life balance. Sometimes we can’t avoid last minute rush to meet the schedule. Two of my critical resource was ill so we had to pitch in’why are u still here?”

“I had some calls’.How are you going back Anandi ? It’s quite late”.

She blurted out “I’ll take the cab” Then immediately regretted it.

As expected he said “why?? Where’s your car?”

“It’s gone for servicing “

He was interrupted by a phone call. He spoke into the phone “Hi Amisha How are things in New York?”

Anandi looked towards him startled.” Of course he was engaged to Amisha he might be married to her by now”  She thought. Suddenly her heart felt heavy.

“Oh really !! I am glad you are there to take care of things” He said then laughed.

“Tell little Adiyta that I miss him too and will bring his fav toys for him”.

“Ok I will look into those. Just mail them to me. My work is almost done here. I will be back soon. C ya. Bye”. He smiled and cut the call.

Anandi averted her eyes.

“Sorry it was an important call. So u were saying?”

“Don’t worry company cabs are quite safe I have used them several times myself” She said dryly.

He didn’t look too convinced.

 

On reaching the parking lot followed her to the security desk. Since no one else was travelling towards Anandi’s home. She was the sole traveler in the cab. And it was already raining which made the surroundings even darker.

“Anandi  it’s too late. It’s not safe to travel in cab. Please let me drop you home”.

“No Shiv I can manage on my own. You don’t have to trouble yourself”.

“Anandi please don’t be stubborn. I know your reservations but I will feel terrible and probably worry to death if I let you go alone. Please come with me Anandi” He said with a pleading look.

She sighed and gave in. She still felt terrible for hurting him that day.

She went to his car a Jaguar this time. She sat on the passenger side while he started the ignition.

“Where’s your BMW?”

He laughed “u miss that car too?? I also miss it”

“That was not my answer”

“It’s in Mumbai at my place. I haven’t used it since…well since I left for New York”.

“When did you shift to New York?”

“Three years back”. He started the FM and music wafted in the car.

…(eng Translation here http://bollymeaning.raag.fm/2013/04/sun-raha-hai-na-tu-ro-raha-hoon-main.html)

Mujhko iraade de
Kasamein de, waade de
Meri duaaon ke ishaaron ko sahaare de
Dil ko thikaane de
Naye bahaane de
Khaabon ki baarishon ko
Mausam ke paimane de
Apne karam ki kar adaayein
Kar de idhar bhi tu nigaahein

Sun raha hai naa tu
Ro raha hun main
Sun raha hai naa tu
Kyun ro raha hun main (x2)

Manzilein ruswa hain
Khoya hai raasta
Aaye le jaaye
Itni si iltejaa
Ye meri zamanat hai
Tu meri amaanat hai haan…

Apne karam ki kar adayein
Kar de idhar bhi tu nigaahein
Sun raha hai naa tu
Ro raha hoon main
Sun raha hai naa tu
Kyun ro raha hun main

Sun raha hai naa tu
Ro raha hoon main
Sun raha hai naa tu
Kyun ro raha hun main (x2)

Yaaraa

Anandi sat stiffly. She was really tired and the car was indeed comfy but she was uneasy. Maybe it was his presence which made her jittery. Why was she doing this ? Perhaps she shld tell him calmly that there was no need to feel guilty and perhaps he would leave her alone. There was no need for things to turn ugly.

Shiv looked at her from the corner of his eye. She was still the same and the song seemed so apt. As if it came out straight from his heart.

He stopped the car near her apartment and then she realized she never told him her address !!

“How did he?? If could find out her marital status he can find out my address too” She thought.

“Thanks Shiv” She said. Feeling genuinely grateful. He smiled and nodded. She tried unbuckling the seatbelt. It was stuck. Seeing her struggle he offered his help “May I?”

He reached across to catch the buckle. For a min they froze. It had been so long since they had been this close. That undercurrent was still the same. In fact the long parting had increased its intensity.

They caught the buckle at the same time as a result their hands were on each other’s. He stopped and looked at her. Their gaze met and her heart skipped a beat.

It was so easy to forget the past…rest of her life…her pain…everything and just be with him.

Her mind went blank and her heart was drumming at the speed of bullet train…They shared an eye lock.

Waqt bhi thehara hai
Kaise kyun ye huaa
Kaash tu aise aaye
Jaise koi duaa
Tu rooh ki raahat hai
Tu meri ibaadat hai

Apne karam ki kar adaayein
Kar de idhar bhi tu nigaahein

Perhaps it was the rain… weather…the romantic song…or their own pent up emotions.

He leaned in slowly and gently, closing in his face giving her enough time to access his intention and refuse. Instead despite of herself she met his kiss.

It was hesitant and sweet. Then he lifted his hands to press against her face kissing her deeper. It felt like homecoming. His hand went to her waist he simply placed it there applying no pressure. After loosing herself for dont know how long.

Her mind screamed “STOP IT”‘ She broke the kiss saying “No Shiv !!!” pushing him away.

He pulled back but was still holding her face rubbing her temple with his thumb “It doesn’t have to be like this Anandi. You were happy with me before I can make you happy again”.

Rage filled her like. She could feel anger pulsating in veins…at him and at herself.

“No Shiv stop it…How could you'”

“Anandi just listen to me”. He insisted holding her wrists.

Her eyes welled up due to anger. She screamed “Just stop it” And slapped him.

A sudden silence prevailed in the car except for the music. He closed his eyes as if trying to hide is emotions. His grip loosened.

Anandi was too shocked at her impulsive action. She didn’t want to hurt him but it was too much to take. She fumbled and opened the belt buckle and ran out in the rain.

He didn’t stop her just looked at her sadly. He rubbed his head in frustration. He had messed up again “Why can’t I take things slow” He thought. He was not upset by the slap. He knew it was well deserved in fact he deserved more. But he was pained by the thought that he had hurt her again. Instead of making amends he behaved worse.

“What’s wrong with me why do I behave like a hormonally charged teenager”. But that’s how it had always been with her. He desired her and loved her to the point of madness. No one had ever sent his pulse racing the way she did.

Anandi dint stop till she reached her room. Collapsing on the bed she sobbed. This was worse’worse than when he left her worse than her miscarriage.

“How could he even think so in spite of being married” She thought

“And how could I allow this to happen !! All he has ever given me is pain. Now he took away my respect too. I hate u Shivraj Shekhar I just hate you” She said.

 

 

To be continued…

Here’s the youtube link of the above songEmbarrassed embedding never works for me Ouch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=unRkCH-c__o

 

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5 Responses to Affairs of the heart – Chapter 24

  1. sanjupreethi says:

    Hi Neha, this is a great update. I am very much new to all these technical aspects of internet, mailing etc.

  2. priya says:

    Plss continue here…we love ur stories…it’s fresh…very urban…love all the chapters

  3. Hi I am Peea aka Pussycat of IF and Iam an ardent fan of ff…Thanks for letting me know of ur blog…

  4. sree says:

    Beautiful, way of expressing Shiv and Anandi’s state of mind / heart. Hoping to see more of revelations from shiv side.

  5. jyothi says:

    u r an amazing writer

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